Lost in Crazy..

    I know we are far gone. And that I am threw attempting to fix us. But if there's anyone whose worth hearing this it is you.. Happy Valentine's.     We both know I am not into those clichés but I might not get a better occasion to thank you for everything.     I am really so very grateful for you. It wasn't always frustration and disappointments. It was so very beautiful. It was love. It was life. It was everything. And I loved you.. Oh God how much I have loved you...     You gave every breath, every thought, every single heartbeat a meaning. I don't know where I would have been without you. You made me who I am. All my successes past and coming, I owe to you. You weren't just a boyfriend. You were my father, mother, home, family, happiness, and passion.     You made me feel everything.. Absolutely everything. And that's one thing you could never imagine how much I love you for. I thought I am ugly. ...

It is funny how you feel weak when someone points out your strength. Strength is exaggerated. . Strength is overrated. . Strength is coincidental. . Strength is accidental. . No one chooses to be strong out of virtue. Strength was never a choice. . Strength is what's forced upon you when there's no other route to take.. Strength is the lie of the cowardly to mask up their weakness. .

Enough baby.. enough. . Enough love.. what you are doing is wrong honey enough... You cannot play with people's emotions. . You cannot thrive on people's trust and misconceptions.. You cannot have one foot in one foot out only so you don't get hurt at the end.. You cannot have half a heart in and half a heart somewhere else only so you don't feel lonely... You cannot want one because of what he meant... because of what he gave.. because of what you were.. You cannot keep him around for the hope that maybe someday. . somehow he will go back to what he used to be.. that it would go back to the way it was... because darling that won't happen, what's done is done.. wounds bled out.. scars formed.. and they are here to stay and he is never going back to the man you once loved.. You cannot want one because he is wrong for you in every possible way.. because being with him would be challenging everything about who you are.. because he is everything you've n...